evidently work has lifted the unreasonable block on livejournal, and facebook. who knew?! still won't let me hit gmail though.

oh, also, i bought a macbook. and it's fantastic.

what can i say, what can i say?

it's been awhile since i've really written anything down. i've had tons of stuff swimming around in my head lately. time to start getting some of them down and out of the way.

( really, this is going to be hella boring to anyone that isn't me. consider yourself warned. )

i'm sure i'll write down more as it comes to me. right now my brain is starting to shut down.

also, kilts arrived today, for the wedding i'm going to this weekend. THAT is going to be hilarious.

my father just said on the phone:

"anything's better than what we've been having. gotta get obama in there, with some new ideas, turn this thing around."

in 70+ years he's never voted democratic.

well ain't that something.

i am at the beach for the week. i think i've mentioned this before.

today we went down to the sandbridge area just to see if it was better than where we were. and driving down the strip we were commenting on the houses' names.

are you all aware of this? that in beach areas, the houses are all named? like "sea breeze" or "legasea" or "the smiling dolphin" who knows. but i was trying to come up with some on my own, and the best i could do was:

"poetry in m'ocean" - this one is good but mocean looks weird, so we add the apostrophe, but then it sort of turns into "poetry in ma ocean" which is iffy.

"sandycap access" - this one is pretty good though.

the best one kevin came up with was "fryin' sea crest".

last night akcoll99, junior and myself all went to a party. now, i say "went to" like it was some house right down the street or something, but this is not the case.

( hi-jinks in nature )

definitely a fuuuun night though, despite the drive.

i noticed that yesterday was 20080808. this appeals to me.

as you were.

these are they (somely):

there was a little girl, who had a little curl
right in the middle of her forehead
and when she was good, she was very, very good
and when she was bad she was horrid.

this one isn't about you, i think of it in regards to me actually. and while i don't have curls, when i AM good, i'm very good. but when i'm bad... not so much. which also relates to another quote that i recently came across in the game "Braid" (crazy beautiful btw):

"if we've learned from a mistake and become better for it, shouldn't we be rewarded for the learning, rather than punished for the mistake?"

which i shall also put up in it's entirety, because the whole passage is actually really evocative:

( a whole lot of pertinent wordage on mistakes and forgiveness )

i'm really frustrated right now. i'm going on vacation for a week with my family (next week actually) and for THAT i cannot wait. i'm totally excited and i'm completely looking forward to spending time with them and getting away.

the issue i have is that i don't know what to do about my ferrets.

this is causing me a great deal of stress.

i just blinked and slept for 3 hours. it was FRIKKIN glorious.

this morning i was driving to work down boulevard, when LO and Behold there was construction all up over the place. so i follow the detours down monument and over to like what? Robinson or something? and ultimately come to a red light where, of course, i sit and wait for it to turn green. and i just sit there, waiting, watching the red light, waiting for it to change. no other cars around at this intersection or anything, just me sitting there, watching the little red light. the blinking red light. juuuuuuust me. sitting there. with a blinking red light. waiting for it to change... the astute reader will already have caught on to what sleepy jason's brain clearly wasn't processing. it takes a bit before my brain FINALLY realizes that it's JUST a flashing red light. there isn't even a yellow or green light there attached to the thing. IT'S JUST A SINGLE FLASHING RED LIGHT. there's no light for it to CHANGE into even if it WANTED to.

clearly i need more sleep.

whats odder still is that a truck did pull up next to me, and also waited for awhile. either, because i was also just stopped there, or maybe he had the same issues i did.

naaaaap? probably not. i'm meals on wheels tonight bitches!

soooo somewhere along the line i lost my pill case. which isn't horrible, because i was figuring i was going to have to buy a new one eventually. the one i had was purchased 4 years ago after all my heart nonsense. my mom was staying with me for 2 months taking care of me, which was both a blessing and a curse, and told me that in order to keep track of my medications i would need to get a pill case.

like everything else i do when i'm TOLD do it, i railed against it, and told her i didn't need one. two days after she left, i went out and bought one. because it was the right idea, i just needed to do things at my own pace and for my own reasons.

the one i bought wasn't one of those straight weekly pill cases, because my OCD wouldn't allow me to use one like that. too much rigidity with the S-S schedule. my brain can't work that way, and whenever i thought of using a case like that i just couldn't process it. and my mind imediately rejected the idea. but i saw one that was a circle instead of a straight line. NO BEGINNING AND NO END, i could fill pills up on any day i wanted and i wasn't confined by the rigid schedule.

this probably won't make sense to a lot of you 'normal' people out there, but beileve me when i say that it's the only way my brain is comfortable with the pill case concept. theres really no other way to explain it.

anywhoo. so thats how i managed my pill work for the last oh say 3.5 yearsish. which brings us back to the present day. i knew i was going to have to buy a new one soon. the letters were all but faded off my case, so each time i filled it in, i had to spend a few minutes looking closely to find and count out the right day to start from. i KNOW you'd think that, without the letters really readable, i'd be able to start from just any ole day and bobs my uncle, but you'd be very very wrong.

plus the plastic lids had started to really wear and i figured someday soon one was going to just haul up and pop off, and then i'd DEFINITELY have to just buy a new one.

but no! talk about your underdog upsets here. i just up and LOSE the damn thing. who saw THAT coming? luckily there were only like a day and a half of pills left in there, and i still had some at home, so i'm not going to DIE (from lack of medication anyway... at least not today). but i did only have 3 pills left which keep my heart beating regularly, which is only a day and a half of NON-arrhythmia related happiness.

so i've got that prescription refilled and all. i'll pick it up today and the watch works will continue unabated. but the point i'm trying to make, is that i'll also need to grab a new case, which i'm frankly a little excited about (consumerism??) maybe i can get a different color this time? the possibilities are virtually ENDLESS, up to like three.

i guess i got my 2 dollars worth out of the last case. i think i've told this story before. oh well. time to go to a meeting.

oh another type of unacceptable pill case, the one with buckets for pills for 'today', 'tomorrow', and 'day after tomorrow' this won't work AT ALL, because i'll only ever be able to take one days worth of pills, and then STOP. it's NEVER TOMORROW.

man, no lie, it's like post your favorite video day on my friends page. i missed a memo.

heeey, look who's still alive after all? show of hands, who thought i had some sort of life threatening medical accident again? anyone? you? in the back maybe? no?

yes i'm fine, no medical problems what so ever. in fact i've actually been working on getting OFF my ass and hitting the gym NEARLY regularly. bought a heart rate monitor and have been running and trying to a) not kill myself doing so, and b) actually strengthen my heart some so that maybe i'll be okay. it's a process, but i think overall it's working some.

granted the doc doesn't want me getting my heart rate above 120, but thats like nothing, and i'd never make any progress at that level. so instead i'm taking a slant of trying to listen to my body, and do what seems okay for me.

( utter frakkin' nonsense )

speaking of which, i've not explored much of the fun areas of richmond. like rivers and islands and abandoned factories and such. WHY WON'T SOMEONE TAKE ME EXPLORING?

lucas has been saying "road trip" lately. anyone think it's actually going to happen?

also, i saw HULK SMASH! last night with jr. it was better than i was setting myself up to believe. i mean, it's not iron man, but few things are, lets be honest. though i have to say that liv tyler really wasn't all that great in it. at least lou ferrigno is still going strong, and fuck if that dude is not still humongoloid. afterwards we went to go see lucas at penny lane for a drink. no, to really be honest, we went to get a drink, and lucas HAPPENED to be there. ;)

other news, dark knight thursday midnight. i had meant to watch Batman: Gotham Knight prior to seeing the movie, but time has gotten away from me. i'll 'flix it next week.

thats about it. hopefully you'll all see me around here more often. i'm trying people. i really am.

i'm not sure i could even come up with anything interesting to say about this. you just have to see it for yourself.

i wish i knew more about quantum mechanics. i know the hell out of physics. i can tell you how shit works just by looking at it, no prob.

on a sub atomic level though, i start to have a problem. i can't wrap my head around the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle.

you can either know a particles position, or it's momentum but not both? if you can fix a point in a trajectory in 3 dimensional space, you should be able to figure out both. right? and predict where it will be and when.

i need to do more research. the problem i have is that quantum mechanics is all theoretical. and i'm okay with theoretical up to a point, but i need to see things to really understand them.

i dunno. i'm not saying that david tennant isn't a decent choice. and i do enjoy his work, i'll still watch it. and maybe it'll get BETTER, but i still think that chris eccleston had a charm and energy that i prefer.

i'm sure david will mature into the role, i've only seen one ep so far. but he hasn't replaced CE, from where i'm sitting, yet.

let me tell you about the glory that was my weekend.

Sat night, i had a party at the house. haven't had one of these in a long time. december before last i think. definitely long over due. had an awesome turnout. tons of new people, and all the old favorites. even gate1998 showed up, which was fantastic since i haven't seen her in like a decade since we grajimitated high school. SO... tons of good conversation, and cooking and hanging out and eating. i made it a specific point to drink less this time, and as a result found myself MUCH more able to carry on a conversation towards the end of the evening! thanks to akcoll99, suzy_hendrix, gate1998, antisocialite, silvanos, theydontloveyou, and everyone else in attendance for a wonderful time. i made a monkey bread, as i tend to do in these situations, and it was like a shark feeding frenzy. i've never seen a dessert get put down that quickly. luckily i took some pics i'll have to post later.

sunday emre, patty (patti? pattie??) myself and a couple of their friends from DC all went and spent the day at kings dominion. this is the ideal day to go to any amusement park, and i think shall henceforth be my new easter tradition. park was totally empty. the longest you had to wait for any ride was like 3 minutes tops, and that was only the volcano. we rode on most every coaster we could: volcano x2, avalanche, flight of fear x2, anaconda x2, back lot stunt coaster (formerly italian job), hurler, grizzly, rebel yell, drop zone, swings, sponge bob in 3d, ricochet. am i forgetting anything? oh, flying eagles! all i know is that it was a really great day. my only complain is that i need more legroom in most of these rides.

i could definitely stand more weekends like that in the future. i was totally exhausted sun night and completely crashed.

i guess lol cats are becoming fairly common place these days. perhaps a little TOO common place if you ask me (ninsta_x i'm looking in your direction ;) )

but the point i was trying to make, is that when i first read this:


i thought that in the second panel, tatsuya was making a lolcat reference, with the use of "can". if your'e not familiar, this is just the kind of broken english that makes them cute and all. but then i realized that the can was the NOUN form.

oh well. it was interesting to me, but then again, it's 7:15pm and i'm still at work...

who knew that if you took garfield out of the comic, it sometimes actually becomes funny again...

i bet this would also work for the movie.